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Being Sued For Defamation After Sexual Assault By Soledad Maristany
This month’s story hits a little too close to home. Soledad Maristany created a GoFundMe on behalf of her friend, Nina, a musician who was assaulted in January of 2020. In October of this year, she courageously posted her truth on ‘Not In Our…
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Make Time To Live
We are all constantly thinking about time and how to use it, or how to get the most from it. We measure time in productivity which is incorrect but it’s too late to change that for the world. We can possibly change it for ourselves. I was recently asked what I think the best use… Continue reading Make Time To Live
The Performer
If there’s one thing I know about people it’s that many of them will go to the most melodramatic lengths to fabricate authenticity. Nobody is without insecurity, and there is a bit of a performer in all of us. But there are many that have a permanent spotlight hovering over them like a halo. These… Continue reading The Performer
November Update: An Adventurous Anniversary
On the morning of our anniversary, Eric and I were awoken by the blood-curdling squeal of a poor little mouse. Why was he squealing? Because our maintenance man placed glue traps in our home which are the most horrific contraptions I’ve ever heard of. Seriously I can’t believe these things are legal!! I started to… Continue reading November Update: An Adventurous Anniversary
Five Songs From ‘Red’ That Deeply Influenced My Womanhood
After months of waiting, Taylor’s Version of her album Red has finally been released. Taylor Swift’s fourth studio album originally debuted in October 2012, but this year she has begun re-releasing her previous works in order to rightfully gain back ownership of her masters. After thoroughly enjoying the release of Fearless(Taylor’s Version) in May of… Continue reading Five Songs From ‘Red’ That Deeply Influenced My Womanhood
A Survivor’s Thoughts On Reporting An Assault By Ariel
“Absence of evidence is not evidence of absence.” Paul Holes Paul Holes used this phrase in his podcast today stating this is commonly said between crime investigators. Like I’ve said time and time again, especially in cases of sexual assault, it tends to come down to a he-said-she-said, which in turn leaves many cases unreported.… Continue reading A Survivor’s Thoughts On Reporting An Assault By Ariel
Despite, Not Because
They tell me I’m strong. It’s true. How familiar, the sound of misunderstanding behind the word “strong” coupled with good intentions. I say nothing or “thank you.” It’s widely believed that trauma makes victims more resilient. Trauma doesn’t make victims more anything. Trauma takes. Trauma is a monster that aims to annihilate anything in its… Continue reading Despite, Not Because
If I Had A Daughter
I’d be tempted to keep her from society. Not for myself, but to protect her soul. To shield her from the poison that exists in the sharp teeth of the monsters who slither around and feast on angelic beings. Imagine if there was a way to assure that she would remain unscathed, unviolated, unscarred, unburdened … Continue reading If I Had A Daughter
Another Moment
You’re playing piano in an empty coffee shop. I’m sipping on the perfect cup And consuming confectionery bliss With a sparkle of citrus But It’s difficult to chew when The muscles in my mouth Are fixed in the proudest grin. Beaming. You are my piano man. Those magnificent fingers I hold in my hand daily… Continue reading Another Moment
Roxane Gay Could Have Read My Essay
The greatly anticipated results of the Medium Writers Challenge were finally announced last week, and they seemed to stir quite a bit of controversy. The drama of it all has been relatively entertaining. Unfortunately, I was not the finalist nor one of the honorable mentions. Although I didn’t expect to win, I couldn’t help the… Continue reading Roxane Gay Could Have Read My Essay
Re-Writing My Future: Thoughts From A Recently Diagnosed Musician By Amanda Roswick
Initially, I responded to my EDS and Pots Diagnoses with relief. Many blood tests had come back normal, so I felt validated when something was actually wrong. Today, though, I hit a huge wall of realization that, although it doesn’t mean my life will be cut short, it will impact my quality of life and… Continue reading Re-Writing My Future: Thoughts From A Recently Diagnosed Musician By Amanda Roswick
More About Me: My Writing Journey
TW: Sexual violence Those of you who have been following my blog since it began are most likely familiar with my story. If you haven’t already, you can read more about my creation of this blog here. This week, I was given the opportunity to publish another bio onto a publication on Medium. At first,… Continue reading More About Me: My Writing Journey
Safe Space for Kenyana R
TW: sexual assault, suicide Over the past several years, Kenyana R has been working to recover from the trauma she endured while she was in an abusive relationship. She initially moved to New York City to escape from said relationship. However, since moving there, she has suffered more unrelenting trauma and abuse. In August of… Continue reading Safe Space for Kenyana R
Becoming Unemployable: What My Resume Would Say If It Were Honest
If there’s one thing I’m sure of in this world, it is that I can form an immediate connection to any person who’s ever worked in customer service or retail. When people like us happen to cross paths and engage in conversation, we are overcome with a warm, almost nurturing sensation from the acceptance to… Continue reading Becoming Unemployable: What My Resume Would Say If It Were Honest
I don’t have a therapist. Here is a poem.
Everyone says therapy is necessary after trauma. I agree but it’s not as simple as it sounds. Therapy is not gossiping with your friends or venting to your family. It can feel that way eventually. But therapy is work. Therapy is a mirror. Therapy is difficult often. I run from things that are difficult and… Continue reading I don’t have a therapist. Here is a poem.
Fundraiser By Sabrina Solomon
In June of this year, Sabrina Solomon of Rockdale, TX created a fundraiser for a survivor she knows personally who prefers to remain anonymous. This victim has been consistently stalked and harassed by a perpetrator who lives in her apartment complex. This harassment has been going on since May. Initially, the perpetrator broke in through… Continue reading Fundraiser By Sabrina Solomon
August Update: Finding Peace Amidst the Chaos
Hello! It’s true, last month was hectic. I didn’t realize so much of it (and more) would carry over into the next month! A lot of quick changes have occurred since I last updated the page. Changes both stressful, and ultimately exciting! I’m more of a big picture person so, the way I see it,… Continue reading August Update: Finding Peace Amidst the Chaos
Searching in Familiar Places
There is a tickle between my toes with every searing step I take along the exfoliant sand as I’m drawn toward the shore. Could that be her slim silhouette in the distance? The sand turns compact and cool. I leave an imprint that pools with brisk… Continue reading Searching in Familiar Places
Fundraiser by Sequioa Huff
TW: Rape, Stalking Sequioa Huff, 19, of Atlanta, GA was raped on May 13th of this year. Fortunately, she was able to go the hospital to get a forensic exam directly after the attack. She then reported the crime to the… Continue reading Fundraiser by Sequioa Huff
July Update: Buy Me A Coffee!
Hello, friends! Recently, things have been quieter around here in terms of consistent posts, so I wanted to take the opportunity to address it. The months of June and July have been quite turbulent and unpredictable for me and many of the people… Continue reading July Update: Buy Me A Coffee!
Eternal Gratitude: Dad
For most of my childhood, my Mom would stay home with my sisters and me. There were a few years where she also worked, and we got to spend time with our Dad in the evenings. One of my favorite…
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Stick To Your List; Know Your Red Flags
After abuse, self-advocacy is one of the most important yet challenging skills to master. Leaving an abusive relationship can feel nearly impossible. It requires a person to recognize that their boundaries are being broken while their nervous system is responding to trauma. There is usually…
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Not Everyone Can Reveal Their Pride
TW: LGBTQIA+ Suicide, Homophobia Happy Pride Month! It thrills me to see so many out and proud members of the LGBTQIA+ community posting pictures and writings about their journeys. It is inspiring to see more and more people speak up every year. Society has slowly…
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Fundraiser for Brooklyn Summers
TW: Transphobia, Sexual assault, PTSD Brooklyn Summers is a black transgender woman and survivor of sexual assault from North Hollywood, Florida. After being diagnosed with PTSD, she was admitted to a mental hospital due to continuous intense nightmares about the…
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Day Dream Carried Away
A fresh page in a new journal, I want to fill in the blanks with the thoughts you inspire. A best friend, A romance, A release. I’ll look at you and feel sunshine golden warmth and hellfire red sins. You ask for my words…
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Fall in Love with Yourself: A Letter to Me at 22
Dear 22-year-old Alex, I know you don’t think so, but there are so many reasons to love you that have nothing to do with your mile-long legs or the sparkle of your eager eyes. Your endless enthusiasm combined with your head-turning audacity are what make you…
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Justice for Lily
TW: Sexual assault, severe trauma, pedophilia This month as I searched for a survivor’s fundraiser to feature here, I found a story that is as heinous as it is infuriating, which is why I find it incredibly important to talk about. The…
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Eternal Gratitude-Mom
When my sisters and I were younger, every year on Mother’s Day we used to wake up early so we could draw pictures with crayons on construction paper for my mom. Our Dad would help us to make eggs benny and… Continue reading Eternal Gratitude-Mom
Performative Activism is Everywhere
It is important for us to recognize that April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month. But, in 2021, is “awareness” really something we need more of? The awareness we needed came after the early to mid 2010s when women’s empowerment started trending in pop culture and slowly grew. We saw female… Continue reading Performative Activism is Everywhere
Dear Loyalist by Amanda Roswick
You believe him. Why wouldn’t you – when he serves you the whole world on a silver platter? But be warned – Your euphoria is an illusion It will soon be your head he serves on that silver platter And when that happens, Those that once bore the weight of…
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Meaningless Words
People speak words to me as if the words alone mean something, As if I should put trust in the words themselves. Words are meaningless without action and Intentions are pointless without follow through. Rich, coming from a woman who struggles to commit to anything. Even richer, because I say…
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A Survivor’s Thoughts on Pursuing Justice
TW: Rape, sexual violence, abuse, sexism I know the right thing to do is to pursue justice. But all my life, what I’ve known to be true is that moving on requires a lot of space, time and personal growth. Pursuing justice will stunt this. Pursuing justice will take up…
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Learning To (LWord) After Abuse
Ok, so am I a part of a couple now? Can this happen for me? Is this allowed? My history of dating and relationships has been tumultuous, to say the least. After so many abusive experiences, I had gotten into the habit of only being attracted to the wrong type…
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Eternal Gratitude-Abby
As this blog has barely begun, I’d like to start it off with a few staple components that will keep me consistent in my posting. One thing that I loved to do when I was younger was write letters and cards of appreciation to people that made my life better.…
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Justice for Tayvion
If you’ve read my story on my About Me page, you’re already aware that one of the main reasons I started this blog was to spread awareness about victims of sexual violence and trauma. My aim is to use this space to amplify the voices of those who are unheard. I…
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My Body Is Badass!
The female form has been exploited, sexualized, criticized and idealized for centuries. I don’t generally like to discuss mine, or anyone else’s, because I believe we are ALL much more than just our figures. Too much of my life I’ve spent obsessing over my image. It’s been exhausting. I wish…
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I Wish
I wish women would stick together all the time.I wish it were that simple.It’s not.They don’t.Often times they have valid reasons not to.It doesn’t mean it won’t sting me.I understand.People…
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Identifying a Gaslighter
Gaslighting is the act of manipulation using psychological efforts to make a person question their own sanity and reality. The behavior ranges from toxic communication to severe emotional abuse, depending on how frequent it is. It is a tactic used by abusers, control freaks AND ordinary people. Understandably, most don’t…
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Eternal Metamorphosis 